Borrowed Time-Part IV (FINAL)
If my life had a theme song it would be “if you can’t be with the one you love, love the one you’re with.”
As promised, Rock didn’t give up so easily. He was saying and doing all the right things but the only reason why he even had a chance was because Tyrell told me he wanted nothing more to do with me. I had given up hope but that didn’t stop me from still being in love with him. I settled for Rock because he was the father of my two children and being with him was a lot better than being alone. I tried not to show it but I think Rock could tell.
Rock sent flowers, took me out of town for the weekend, paid bills and was a loving father to our children. Any sane woman would be head over heels in love with him but my crazy ass found everything wrong. All I did was compare him to Tyrell. If Rock bought a dozen roses, I compared them to the tulips Tyrell sent to me. If Rock took me to Jacksonville, I compared it to the Vegas trip Tyrell and I went on. If Rock gave me two orgasm, I remembered when Tyrell gave me three. It was unhealthy and unfair to Rock but what was I supposed to do? The heart loved who it loved.
I haven’t spoken with Tyrell since that day he told me to leave him alone. To hear him say that hurt me and even though I couldn’t blame him for being mad, I was. He had a whole wife at home and he’s mad because he’s not the father of my daughter? I guess it ain’t no fun when the rabbit got the gun.
It was Friday night and I was getting ready to go out to eat with Rock. He called me and practically had to beg me to go after I told him I had a long day and I was tired. I wasn’t that tired but for some reason Tyrell was heavy on my mind.
Usually when I got with Rock, I forgot all about Tyrell because he always showed me a good time. He has a great personality and always makes me laugh. I tried to be as into Rock as he was into me but it was impossible. I was still in love with another man.
I was still applying my makeup when Rock came in the house. “Damn, woman I told you to be ready at 7.” He kissed me on my cheek. “You’re looking good though, babe.”
“Thank you, sir. You’re too kind,” I said while laughing. “I’m almost done. Give me a few minutes.”
It was moments like this that thought I could get used to being with Rock. He was considerate and always made me feel attractive. I just wish I could make my heart believe that.
As promised, I was ready to go in a few minutes. Rock brought his cousin with him to watch the kids. She loved her little cousins and they always had a great time when she kept them. I didn’t worry; I knew they were in good hands.
Rock and I went out to Spondivits, one of my favorite spots. I had to admit it was great to be able to spend time with him and it not be a secret. Rock and I were enjoying our dinner, talking and laughing like two friends. An older lady walked by our table and commented on how happy we looked. I smiled and thanked her for kind compliment.
“That smile is really something else. What do I have to do to make it permanent?” Rock asked me.
I blushed and smiled even harder.
“I know we’re just getting back into this relationship thing, but know that you’re going to be my wife one day.”
I stared at Rock and I was momentarily turned on by his confidence. I love a man that knew what he wanted and went after it. That’s the kind of man Tyrell was. But even though Rock was doing and saying all the right things, I wished it was Tyrell sitting across from me, promising to marry me. Before I could respond to him, my phone rang. I wasn’t going to answer it but it was Shay.
“Hello?” I answered relieved I didn’t have to respond to Rock.
“Hey, Justice. I hate to bother you but, can you come to the hospital to get Isaiah? I had to bring Brielle to the ER. They think her flu is becoming pneumonia.”
“Oh goodness! Of course! Do you think she will be admitted?” Shay didn’t come to work for the past two days because Brielle had the flu. When I talked to Shay yesterday, Brielle was still not doing better.
“I think so. But we’ve been up here for a little while and he’s getting so restless. CJ had to work out of town this weekend so I’m a little stressed out.”
“Sure. I’m on the way. He can just spend the night with me tonight. Braxton will be excited to have someone to play with.”
“Thank you so much, Justice. I’ll give you my key so you can get him some clothes.”
“Don’t worry about that. He can wear some of Braxton’s. Just take care of Brielle and I will handle Isaiah.”
Shay and I hung up and I let Rock know what was going on. He didn’t seem disappointed that we had to end our date and he took me to the hospital. As wrong as it was for me to say, I was kind of glad Shay called because the conversation with Rock was getting too deep. He’s talking marriage but I’m not sure I am ready for all that.
Correction: I’m not ready for that with Rock. If I was having this conversation with Tyrell, I would have been ecstatic.
At the hospital, we went to the ER and I texted Shay to let her know we were here. Rock was looking at me intently and I know he wanted me to say something about his admission at the restaurant. Instead of answering, I went to the bathroom to try to figure out what I needed to tell him. Of course, the logical thing to do would be to tell him the truth. But the truth would hurt him too bad. Maybe I should just go ahead and marry Rock. I would love to plan a wedding and slay in a gorgeous gown. The more I thought about the possibility of having a grand wedding, the more appealing getting married was. Of course, I’d have to get him to propose officially because mentioning it at dinner would not suffice.
I emerged from the bathroom mentally planning my wedding. I couldn’t wait to tell Devon so we could get to planning the event of the year. I was so lost in my thoughts that I hardly noticed anyone else in the waiting room. Until I locked eyes with Tyrell. He looked as surprised to see me as I was to see him. So as not to make it obvious, I diverted my eyes only to be met with a scowl from his wife.
As if my night couldn’t get worse, I had to see her.
Getting the call my daddy was rushed to the ER made my heart stop. My mama thinks he had a heart attack but she wasn’t sure yet. She was in the back with him while my sister, brother and I waited in the waiting room. I really don’t know who called Tyrell but right now, I didn’t care. I just needed my daddy to be alright.
Tyrell and I arrived at the hospital around the same time. Even though the circumstances were terrible, Marley was excited to see her daddy. I was actually glad he was here for her sake.
Justice went and stood next to a man and I wondered if that guy was her daughter’s father. Instead of feeling relief when I saw them, I felt anger. She was partly to blame for my family being torn apart.
We were all quiet, ignoring the tension in the air. Justice was staring at Tyrell and Marley interacting. I knew she felt some type of way seeing the type of father he was. I bet she was secretly wishing Tyrell was her baby daddy because if nothing else, Tyrell loved his daughter. Even though Tyrell apologized, the petty in me was dying to come out. I tried to hold it in but I couldn’t.
“How’s your daughter?” I said, disrupting the silence of the waiting room. Everyone looked at me. Only Tyrell and Justice knew what I meant. My sister and brother gave me strange looks while Tyrell looked at me like I lost my mind. Justice didn’t say anything so I repeated my question.
“Fallon, why are you doing this?” Tyrell asked through clinched teeth.
I feigned innocence. “What?”
“No, Tyrell, it’s ok,” Justice finally answered. “My daughter is fine. I notice your ring finger is bare so I guess I don’t need to ask about your husband.”
Devoid of all logic, I charged in her direction. Prepared for a fight, she jumped up, too. Tyrell grabbed me and tried to pull me back. My brother and sister had to help get me outside because all the rage I had built up inside me made me stronger than normal. Marley followed us outside with a look of terror in her eyes.
“FALLON WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?” Tyrell exclaimed.
“You’re what’s wrong with me! I hate you!”
“Who was that?” my sister asked. She and my brother had no idea what they just got involved in.
“His side chick!” I yelled.
“Oh my God, Fallon! Are you serious? You acted a damn fool in this hospital when our daddy is fighting for his life because you saw the woman your EX HUSBAND slept with? You’re so damn stupid!” Jamil barked at me.